When I started this blog I didn’t think anyone would really care to read it, and I didn’t think I would actually do it every day. I started doing this for myself to let out anger and just be me. Well the truth is I’m not an angry person I dislike it when people are angry I think it is pointless. But I am also the type of person that likes to help people with their anger. Well if you ask all the people I have been around in the last 6 or 7 months they would tell you have been very angry towards many friends I lost one of my best friends through all of this and another very close friend as well. I decided at the time that I didn’t need them I was just holding them back. Truth is I was holding myself back from just being me. I made some decisions and tried my best to find a reason why and I have been thinking all the reasons I had were stupid I could of just sat down with either one of them and just talked and worked it out. But in my pain and anger I decided just to get rid of them in my life. One of them was every woman’s dream guy but for some crazy reason I decided he wasn’t the one for me. When in all reality he was more than just good he was everything I had hoped for. And we could of just sat down and talked but being myself that I was this summer I decided to get rid of him. The other one was one of my best friends and her and I could hang out for hours and talk we had plans on living together after high school we could trust each other with everything and with her I don’t really remember what happened I just know we faded and eventually stopped talking to each other all together. I miss them both very much even though I have amazingly awesome other friends no one can ever replace those two.
Today i went to school then went to work and now i am laying here in bed blogging and facebooking. Always a fun time thank you agian to those who take the time to read these it means alot and if ever doesnt let you comment (becuase ik it hasnt been letting some people) just go to facebook and send me a message saying what day you are commenting on LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! =)
Many times its the belief we have in something that causes us to react during different situations. Ask the right question and you get the right answers. The way we believe and view the world we live in is based on the perception of the way we think things should be or the way we think things really are. In truth we then react based on those beleifs and then create the reality that we now live in. Seek the truth, have a clear mind and an open heart and ask the Holy Spirit why do you feel this way and what you suppose to be learning. The answers will come to you. Maybe you are not angry at all...it could be that you are simple frustrated. Find out why things are frustrating you and you will find the answers.
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