Update

well this would be Day 18 but I was really busy this last week my family came on wednesday and they all left on sunday it was a busy weekend for everyone everynight we had a pingpong tournament. It was great to the whole family together. I cant wait til Christmas im countin down the days to get to My grandparents house!!! Today was just another day at school we had an FCA meeting and i am the group captian it went surprisingly well...fun fun times love you all i will start with day 19 tomarrow

Day 11

So today was a good day, besides the part where i had to get up early and go to school only to come home and clean... no wait that was my whole day today was sooooo boring. well i started thing blog yestuerday and i kinda fell asleep on it so im posting it today =)

Day 10

Well today was just another day. i havent really had much to talk about lately I have been working and nothin that anyone said made me think of things to write. today i went to church with the family and then took a road trip to alma. had a pretty good time on our way back we went dumpster divin at first i was like really i dont know you guys but we got some pretty cool things on the side of the road. when we got back we moved a few things around and then i was off to work. it was really really slow today at work but we did get out of there fast. after i got home i started cleaning my room we are having thanksgiving at ourhouse so i have to have my room clean. i have most of it done hoepfully i get the rest done tom. i really dont want to have to clean on wednesday. Well i think that is all for today one of these days i am going to have a really good story to tell GOODNIGHT and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Day 9

Today was another great day. went to work came home got changed and went to the movies with my bestie. her and i have been through alot together in the last week and i am so thankful for her. i dont know what i woulddo without her. we help each other out as much as we can. she is the one that got m estarted on this blog and it has helped so much it just lets me let the day go and make me reconize that i should be thankful for alot. I LOVE YOU GIRLIE!!!!!

Day 8

Today i went to school and had an okay day. afterwards i got to hangout with my bestie and hugout the rest of the day. went to our school play and then to late night we ended up leaveing from that because of someo drama we didnt want to be apart of and went and had some fun with other friends. Its funny how you make friends in school and you have know them for like ever that one day you just stop talking and its like you never knew each other. it has happened a couple times to me this last year. but i am thankful for shelbie brayn and jacob that helped me tonight it didnt take long to get it off my mind we all just talked and had fun hanging out. Today was a good day besides the drama... got to love High School man nothin can get more darmatic than that man lol... GOODNIGHT!!!

Day 7

i figured i should slit them up lol. today November 17 2011 was a good day except my tooth did more than kick me in the butt man it kicked me all over lol. i hurt so bad i was sick to my stomach. Right now it dont hurt that bad but i took some pain killers so the pain is just being hidden. I listening to a good song by Lauren Alaina she is an amazing singer!! Tomarrow i get to hang out with one of my best friends Shebes we are going to go to the school play and then go to late night just havin a blast all around. lol  My friends help me with so much it unbeilvable that they are still around lol im pretty hard to deal with some times. Well its getting kinda late so i better hit the hay THANK YOU FOR COMMENTING!!!!  Some of them help lots =) love you all

Day 6

so i couldnt do one last night because my internet decide to not work. i wondered why it wasnt working and why it wouldnt fix. then i got a text form a good friend that needed help and i relized if i had been on here i wouldnt give my full heart to helping them. im so thankful that god has given me the friends and family that i have. they are all so wonderful and i love them all very much. I love to help people all the time it makes me feel good inside. today well yesturday i went to the ortho and my teeth were really kicking my butt
this is my blog for yesturday BTW since i didnt get to put one on here. I just keep praying and just keep living love you all =)

Day 5

Today my life was good i went to school got to hang with some of my friends after school. Then came home and watched NCIS. That was all that happened today nothing really big. I really dont know what else to say today hopefully i get something to talk about by tom or this is going to get boring for everyone lol. I guess i will just do a few randoms facts:
1) I dislike green beans
2) My bedroon is in the basement and its cold
3) I love my nieces and nephews to death
4) I like someone
5) I love listening to music
I will give you more sometime later I am going to crash GOODNIGHT ALL!!!

Day 4

When I started this blog I didn’t think anyone would really care to read it, and I didn’t think I would actually do it every day. I started doing this for myself to let out anger and just be me. Well the truth is I’m not an angry person I dislike it when people are angry I think it is pointless. But I am also the type of person that likes to help people with their anger. Well if you ask all the people I have been around in the last 6 or 7 months they would tell you have been very angry towards many friends I lost one of my best friends through all of this and another very close friend as well. I decided at the time that I didn’t need them I was just holding them back. Truth is I was holding myself back from just being me. I made some decisions and tried my best to find a reason why and I have been thinking all the reasons I had were stupid I could of  just sat down with either one of them and just talked and worked it out. But in my pain and anger I decided just to get rid of them in my life. One of them was every woman’s dream guy but for some crazy reason I decided he wasn’t the one for me. When in all reality he was more than just good he was everything I had hoped for. And we could of just sat down and talked but being myself that I was this summer I decided to get rid of him. The other one was one of my best friends and her and I could hang out for hours and talk we had plans on living together after high school we could trust each other with everything and with her I don’t really remember what happened I just know we faded and eventually stopped talking to each other all together. I miss them both very much even though I have amazingly awesome other friends no one can ever replace those two.
        Today i went to school then went to work and now i am laying here in bed blogging and facebooking. Always a fun time thank you agian to those who take the time to read these it means alot and if ever doesnt let you comment (becuase ik it hasnt been letting some people) just go to facebook and send me a message saying what day you are commenting on LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! =)

Day 3

Today was a pretty good day my family and i went to church and after that we cut wood and then went to DQ for a treat. We didnt fight and no yelling at all. I stayed positive and was not anger the whole day. im looking forward to thankgiving and chirstmas and not because of the gifts this is going to be my first chirstmas with my grandparents and my family on that side that lives in Missouri i miss them all so much! For thanksgiving my family is coming to my house i miss them too. It feels like it has been forever since i have seen anyone besides the ones i live with. Right now we have a big fire going in the fire place and im watching NCIS Los Angeles, just relaxing from the hard work we did today.

Day 2

Hello, to all that are starting to follow me =)... Day 2 just another day of my life it was kinda boring to day i had to work most the day and i came home to a house that was empty. It was one of those days that i really needed to be alone. Lately i have been having those or if im around people i dont really talk to anyone. I have had people say they have noticed a lot of anger in my life. ik know i have i have tried to hide it but i guess i dont do that very well. When my parents got home we talked and kinda yelled modtly me but they just sat there and let me because they knew i needed it. Now i feel much better and im really going to try harder to be a happier person i as all of you that read this to pray for me and help me because i know i cant do it with out all of you to be there for me =)

Day 1

      Hi everyone, well i never thought i would be a blogger but i have had a lot of things go on in this past year that has not been so positive. If you talk to any of my friends they will tell you i have changed alot in the past year. I talked to my friend Shelbie the other day and she told me i should start a blog to let it out instead of forgetting what i told each person. So i decided to listen to her. =)
      So her it goes im going to inform you on what happend to me this summer. It started out a good summer going with my sister and her family on vaction we were having a get time. Til I got a phone call saying my dad had been in a car accident. After we found out what had happend and that he was okay we started having fun agian. When i got back home i started hanging out with my friends and having a blast. A few weeks day the road, i got an other phone call saying my bro and his wife was in a car acciedent and they were life watched. I felt like i couldnt help them and i couldnt do anything my friends were with me when this all happend and they stuck beside me the whole time. While they were in the hospital my dad had lost his job and the guy that he had hit ended up dieing, and my dad got dignosed with bipolar as well. Then my grandma past, when we were down there things had happend and my mom and dad faught all the time, my world felt like it was falling apart most of the rest of that summer i was home alone i felt like i was less than anything that God had somthing out for me started hanging out with the wrong crowd. After school started i found out i was the FCA captian i didnt feel like i should be the one to do that my world had fallin i was down i had stopped going to chruch and all those things. Then Mr. Hula one of my teachers had talked to me about going to a conferiance at first i was like o great another things i have to go to. I thought about it and i realized that i really needed to go to this it wasnt  going to be because i have to it become i needed i was so pumped to go and i knew i was going to change me. After i went i felt great i had let go of all the anger. I was so happy with life. Then a week ago it crashed parents started agrueing and life was negative agian. It still is i try so hard to be happy all the time but i just cant keep it up.
     This is when i decided that a blog would be good to do i know if you read it all it was a lot to read i also know i have some missed spelling and or forgotten words. I will try my best to blog everyday and tell you how MY LIFE AS ME is. I just want to thank all my friends that saw the anger in my family and still stuck with me i know i am leaving this year after i graduate but i will always remember you for that i thank you all and i hope you follow my blog and make comments. =)